knockknock*........boo!!

2005-08-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

hey..i've a new home..re-link me yeahh??

http://papercutpencils.blogspot.com

2005-08-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

heyho...

i cant decide if i should sleep or something..

i don't know why..

yeah..

i updated ofus..it's crap..

think i'm gonna go read or something..

goodnight world.

i'm out!

2005-08-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

i've got two songs stuck in my head.

both by silverchair.

here's the first.

Suicidal Dream

I dream about, how it's gonna end
Approaching me quickly
Living a life of fear
I only want my mind to be clear
People, making fun of me
For no reason but jealousy
I fantisize about my death
I'll kill myself from holding my breath

My suicidal dream
Voices telling me what to do
My suicidal dream
I'm sure you will get yours too

Help me, comfort me
Stop me from feeling what I'm feeling now
The rope is here, now I'll find a use
I'll kill myself, I'll put my head in a noose

My suicidal dream
Voices telling me what to do
My suicidal dream
I'm sure you will get yours too

Dreamin' about my death, dream
Suicidal, suicidal, suicidal dream
I'm suicidal, suicidal dream

and the second.

Ana's Song (Open Fire)

Please die Ana
For as long as you're here we're not
You make the sound of laughter
and sharpened nails seem softer

And I need you now somehow
and I need you now somehow

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you

Imagine pageant
In my head the flesh seems thicker
Sandpaper tears corrode the film

And I need you now somehow
And I need you now somehow

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you

And you're my obsession
I love you to the bones
And Ana wrecks your life
Like an Anorexia life

Open fire on the needs designed
On my knees for you
Open fire on my knees desires
What I need from you
Open fire on the needs designed
Open fire on my knees desires
On my knees for you

please do excuse my current self.

2005-08-18T15:22:00.000+08:00

i am sick and tired.

of certain people.

people who

i don't have any words for them.

certain things.

even the little things.

and sometimes the little things that make me smile.

i feel like.

i don't know what to feel anymore.

sick of feeling.

i'm tired of being angry.

i'm tired of being sad.

i'm tired of being tired.

but that's not the end of me.

or my suicidal dreams.

so screw you.

cause hey.

the world's all screwd.

wake up.

smell the tar.

wear tthe breaks.

crash.

burn.

and live with it.

OUT.

2005-08-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

hey....

I AM INSPIRATIONLESS.

just when i need to get that song done..

this sucks...

2005-08-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

i'm updating my com..

just revamped it..

the service pack 3 taking bloody long to download..

hmm...i'm running a FEVER..

haish..again...

got a tan from yest..haha..

currently it looks pretty good..hahahaha..

yeahh..

went pacific plaza yest..then buy me flips at city surf..

took bloody long in deciding lar..haha..

i like my flips.. (:

my ears hurt..think my head too hot liao..

haish...

why is dad making me do this now?

but i've feeling can start downloading songs again..

pretty soon..

oh yeahh...

THANKS SHAH!!!!FOR DOWNLOADING ALL THE PROGRAMS I NEED EARLIER!!

haha..i'm off...

24% left.

2005-08-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

in com lab 4..or 3 now..doing malay..yeah..the cerpen thing..havent been able to update at home..

com been screwing up..haha..

oh yeahh..

dad gonna cut the internet line next month..so that means no more internet for me..

just great...

haish..

life been..well...

colourful..

that seems to be the way that i can put it..

i'm gonna go..

try to be a (song)writer..

OUT!

2005-08-02T19:37:00.000+08:00

heyho...

i'm at blk 612 i think..some internet place..yeah..

dad and mum went to ikea..bro with me here..haha. a buck 50 cents per hour not bad arh..

been listening to the msn indie radio..sweet..good music..haha..

place aint got no pp..

did my research for the third bloody time...

time's almost up soon..gotta go!!!!

2005-07-24T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey....

finally i see the blinking cursor thing that allows me to type...

first...

thank you dearest computer for letting me update..thank you very much..

haha..

been sick past few days...fever got all the way to 39.8...yeahh...
got freaked out for a while cause i was wearing layers of shirt took med and stuff and the fever didn't go down..

but i'll be back in sch..(:

i was in sch just that went home early.. (:
mum picked me up..

so sch has been..well...un-exciting...

when will it ever be?

think i'm pretty screwd for bio and amath..med and my non-discipline self..not studying...

yup...i'm pretty beat mentally...

i've nothing to look forward to anymore..i just realised....

oh yeahh...

hey..anon..apparently there is a kid that looks like me..as in height and hair only..not face...
i'm one of a kind...haha...*grins* that was not a self-praise...it was a very general answer..
everyone got something special that makes them different.. (:

*damn girl excuse my french i can't believe how good you look to me*

what song is that??

screw people who judge me through the bull you hear in school...
oh wait...
i think the sun would shine a little brighter and the world would be better if you'd come up to me to clarify whatever you've heard..if it's bull then we can have coffee and laugh over it..if it's true then..you still up for coffee anyways?maybe you'll see a different me.. (:

what the hell am i doing up at this hour on a school night with nothing to do??

my parents are spending too much on stuff not necessary...and i'm not even asking for a fender strat..

i'm full of angst today....

goodnight world..

2005-07-12T15:57:00.000+08:00

i'm not okay....
i'm not wokay....

in com lab now...

your body is wonderland....

sorta just did lit..haha.my fingers are frozen..
and i've problems typing..haha..

yeahh...

was gonna be openly 'defiant' today..
decided against it..yeahh..heh..
kinad regret that i didn't..

hope to get ice cream or something today..yeahh..hahah...

YOU WEAR ME OUT!!!

haha..ehh...tmw got training!!!

wonder who gonna train us..

i'm kinda hungry..ahaha...whee...hehe..

gotta scooter...

2005-07-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

'heaven is overrated'

drops of jupiter playing..been stuck in my head all day..

'tell the story of a man who was too afraid to fly so he never did land..'

it's a nice song..

'did venus blow your mind?'

kinda writing another song for teacher's day..
my second?third song?

not so sure..wrote some other stuff too..

i'm getting sick of my own style..haha..
need find a new one..

hmm..

not tonight..

kinda tired..gonna go..

OUT!

2005-06-29T14:18:00.000+08:00

heyho..
at the library right now..

hehe..

yeahh...
*turns left*sarah looking at MAC stuff....and she gonna get when?after jc..haha..

whee..okay..
aren't we suppose to be reading?
yes..i think so..

bout an hr ago got bad news..haish..

then earlier during legacy Ms. S just found out about me..
i'm surprised she was shock..

thought somebody in the school would have told her or something..
surprise surprise...

yeahh..they had the campaign-ing thing earlier too..haha..
was funny..
politics politics...

oh yeahh..and i'm in slam.. (:

nothing more to say..

till

NEXT.

2005-06-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

i'm beat..

tired..

and it's only..tuesday..

oh hey..

it's wednesday already...

just did more stuff instead of some..

ooohh...mum found dad's all master chord chart...

so that means i can learn keyboards again!!! (:
and i got me the list of tabs.. (:

hehe..i can make me more music..and since i'm hoping learn the keyboards..
hope music gets better..

ooh...abang boy still owes me a keyboard since 2 hari raya's ago..or is it 3?

dad's organ at his place..hope abang boy don't want then dad take..then i can learn..heh..

ok..i'm gonna go do some other stuff now..

MORNING.

2005-06-28T02:07:00.000+08:00

hey..

no fair..

seems like my few previous posts didn't come out..

bugger..i updated alot and stuff..

haish..nvm then..

kinda lazy to do so now.

it's 2 in the morning..already the 2nd day of this semester..

good morning all..

and good luck to those taking whatever papers today..

have fun! (:

OUT!

2005-06-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

i'm really sorry that i woke you up...

all that i have...
twenty six dollars and keys to a cadillac..
all i want..
to drive all night go anywhere you want to go..

got

- ali dude just called -

haha..fidah's friend..looking for her..
she must be at palawan now....

anws..got back from east coast around 12 there..
and i cant sleep..

slept or an hour only..from 7-8..haha..

yeahh..stayed up the whole bloody night..

and i resisted the temptation to drink..haha..

what was it?bacardi RAZ..still remember how it smells..

pretty much nothing happened..it was kinda boring..

according to dear cousin..we were suppose to go out 'racing' with a friend of hers..

the life my dear cousins lead..

and i'm the most..erm..how do i say this..

the most..'innocent'? most 'well behaved'?

basically they're all pretty havoc..

old school 90s punk people and stuff..

they smoke..drink..sometimes and stuff..

and with me being the 15 that i am..

somehow that means that sooner or later..i'll get my first sip or smt..

then again they don't know that i....

they still think that i'm the youngest..and that they gotta look out for me and stuff..

but recently they started to realise that i've grown..haha..it was funny...

shah said "can go jam and stuff..do all you want..still can get away..just don't get into shit..you know what i mean.."haha..

fidah thought i was 17/18?-amused-

i thought herm was 18..he's 19..

i thought she was 20..she's 22..

that makes shah 23/24?

i'm confused...

heh..

best i ever had (grey sky morning) stuck in my head..

been playing it on geet..

learnt it..

oh yeahh...

how come i don't see any all-girl band in that sunday life paper???

don't tell me there's no all-girl band!!

oh yea...

LOOKING FOR A GUITARIST AND VOCALIST

yup..

that should do it..off to..erm..find food.

sweet......

TANGERINE

2005-06-14T18:17:00.000+08:00

hey......

my post last night didn't come out..

and it's gone...

bugger...

haha..

let me rest in peace...song stuck in my head right now..yup..

not much to say once again..

gonna TRY work on another song soon..

OUT!

2005-06-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

*looks around*

why are people living my dreams?

my most simplest of dreams..

some got new guitars..elect/acoust..

others went to the beach..especially sentosa..

a few got their coms fixed..mine still screwed..

many have company..they got their own persons or people..

though i do too..i pretty much feel lonely..

the guitar..i've been trying to get through my dad since few years back..

the beach..i've been planning but nothing gets through either..

the com..my cousin still in ns..

and the latter..its hard to explain..

and now i only have songs or peoms to write...

which i doubt really gets to anyone..

i guess there's nothing more to expect..

.

2005-06-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

heyho..

feeling kinda low..

not kinda..

i am feeling

low

yeahh...body aching and all..

think i got flu..

haha..

gonna go..

CHILL

2005-06-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

i have a song!!

complete!!

sorta..

don't have no title yet..

OUT

2005-06-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

heyho...

i'm

BACK

so yeahh...

haha..well well..

got home ard 11..yup..forgot what i did..

ate and stuff..

woke up today at ard 10..had a slight fever..still running..

hmm..ever want to run after something but you feel you shouldn't?

i do..heh..it's neither funny nor anything to be happy bout but i'm smiling..

and i'm not gonna sit around and waste time thinking 'if only'..

and there you are wondering what i'm going on bout..

well..don't wonder..

so.

i'm kinda hungry now..

don't feel like eating the food at home..haha..

i miss guitar..

oh well...

i'm gonna go..

'hey you with the wedding dress on,
made of white chiffon blown in the wind...'

no

DOUBT.

2005-06-05T13:07:00.000+08:00

*yawns*

hey.....

i'm sleepy...

have yet to pack..

will do so in a while..then...

wait..till i fall asleep..

yeahh...

gonna clean up my room wee bit..

don't want mum messing it up..(in other words clearing up)

i need get batteries..

oh yeahh..

i got new shoes bout a week ago..

adidas..

influenced by my uncles..all soccer people..

so yeahh..

i keep hearing them telling me go get adidas stuff cause it lasts longer..

that's true..

so i did..heh..

bought some spray too..

took the blue instead of orange..

like the orange one much more..

think i'm gonna go throw a couple of shirts in my bag and then go sweep the house?

*shrugs*

i wanna sleep..heh..

bro thinks i type too fast and he's asking me to slow down..

hey...

oh..(thought i lost my fone..it's in my printer..)

bro reading garfield..

no doubt playing..don't speak..(beautiful song)

i'm wondering what's with the brackets..(*shrug*)

(:

bit of mischief..

chucky gots a whistle..

i gots harmomica..

gonna go..

*yawns*

2005-06-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

like a flower when it's blooming
like newborn when he's smiling

i feel..

screwed..

toyed..

used..

played..

choked..

somehow..

my dark

ANGEL.

2005-05-31T20:16:00.000+08:00

*looks around*

so mom says she thinks i'm going out too much..

told her my plans for the hols..

there's bonding and classes last week..suppose to have palawan but that's cancelled..

going out too much mom?

went to pp to chill..

yeahh..

borrowed batman..ate waffle..went home..

thought we were suppose to have dinner out tonight?

i'm hungry..havent eaten a proper meal for the past two days..

just asked mom..she told me that dad working tonight..and yada yada..so not going anymore just she and dad went earlier..

and i was looking forward for dinner tonight..

i'm hungry..

least bro had a good lunch..his teacher treated his class kfc after classes today..

wait a min..havent had a proper meal in three days!!

last was breekz..at harbourfront..sat night..

then grans that day didn't eat..yest nope..was out..came home saw that mom cooked something which i don't really like..then today i got played..

and now..i've no idea how to........i 've no idea what anymore..

don't give a damn no more..

it's only

TUESDAY.

2005-05-31T12:42:00.000+08:00

not really sure why i'm here..hehe

had a beautiful day yest..

dad actually realised i was wearing a new shirt..

then he asked whose shirt i'm wearing..

then i just smiled..mum too...

THANKS MOM!!

haha..then just today he asked where's my guitar..

told him it's with a friend..then he say why keep at your friend's hse..

then i was like no lar..she got classes then she wanna borrow..

then he was like you better watch out for you end years..

scary..

my com rather slow now..

will blog more later..not much to say..hehe..

(:

2005-05-30T09:30:00.000+08:00

woke up round 9....

kinda having a migrain now..haish....

anyone free today wanna go lib look for joy luck club please msg me...
or if you just wanna chill msg also...

supposedly today got this guy coming over..then he never call..

i don't want to be stuck here...

well well...

guess i'm gonna check on the bbq...

oh yeahh....

good morning love.. (:

i need

ASPRIN

2005-05-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

kinda just ate..

was from grans..

mum and bro woke me up real early today..haha..at ard 9.30?

then yada yada..

mum wanted buy danny his overalls..

so looked in yellow pages for the shop..

left ard 11 went to raffles..

he's a year old and we bought him size 4T (4 toddlers)..haha..

that boy damn cheeky..saw me smile..haha..

yup..then i sorta slept for 3 hrs on the sofa..haha..

then left ard 5.30..bought dinner reached home 8..

i'm typing funny today..

think i'm going out tomorrow.. (:

got a call at 4 this morn..it was ed..haha..i was half asleep..he sang or smt..then realising that i was half asleep told me to cont sleeping..haha.. (:

woke up again at 7.25..sarah..what time you wake up?it's only SEVEN!!!

haha..yea..

people who want to go palawan/or any other beach..please tell me that you're free this thurs..say we meet at harbourfront round 12/1? please msg me.. (:

yeahh..ooh..gotta a phone call...

OUT

2005-05-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

just got back from harbourfront..

saw so many people coming back from sentosa..

told mum me and crew gonna do that then she gave me that look..haha..

saw that taufik cd bro wanted buy..

turns out it's a karoke cd..haha..

that's bull..hahaha...

then didn't buy..haha..cause yeahh..dad thought that that's another versh..

saw the rooster cd again and i askd him again..said no..expected..then i saw this shirt..another no..

i keep getting NOs..

haish..what can i do (to make you love me: the corrs song)

feel like doing some math or something since aunt no longer coming over tonight and nothing's on TV..least nothing good is on..

think i'm going to plan my week or something..

oh yeahh...

PALAWAN

people who wanna go...it should be this thurs..beep me..heh..

oh...

someone is back in town.. (:

haha..poor lad..got jet lag..sleeping now.. (:

i feel like having ice kachang..haha..don't ask why..

think from now on i'm just gonna pen songs..when i get back sweetheart then try to do backing melodies and such..

next song should be titles dark angel or something around that theme..yeahh..haha..

ooh..instead of doing math tonight maybe i should write the song..yeahh..which reminds me...

well...gotta

GO

2005-05-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

hey ho.

sorta got home around 6.30..yeahh..

dad working morn tmw..that means morn till bout 4.30 i'll be free then evening can go meet up m y parents and go dinner at..breeks i think..yeahh..

dad say wanna go the harbourfront one..yeahh..

so yeahh..then sun mum say going grans..

bro had swimming carnival today..

he didn't join..asshole..he's good..rather got the potential lar..then don't wanna swim..

then again he hasn't been swimming for a while now..which reminds me..

PALAWAN!!!

hey...wanna go?

just beep me..don't have my number just ask around..yeahh..

will go sometime ard this week?should be lar..then yeahh..

beach bums for a day!!and yeah...a small picnic with coke and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches?

hehe..i like peanut butter and jelly..

and yeah...people doing food for bbq beep me if you need anything too.. (:

hmm..so currently sweetheart is safe..don't think mum told dad bout my results yet..

she DID see the improvements..

yeahh..hmm..

dad bought bro some ruffedge disc..and he's gonna get him the an evening with taufik one too..

that's so not bloody fair..

i asked him if he could gimme get the rooster cd the other day and he said no..

what kinda crap is that?

screw him lar..bro wanna use com...will be nice today..

i'll be waiting.. - two days to sunday.

2005-05-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

heyho...

today was...

CARNIVAL DAY

jellyfish/amirah/sweetheart/snam/mirabelle ~ says hi and hello and i don't know..

i'm waiting for meet the parents...its at 3.45..least mine is..

rae's at 3.30 and sarah at 5.30..

what more can i say?

not really looking forward to it..

just hoping that dad will see that music/guitars have nothing to do with studies..

IT'S JUST ME.

yeahh..

i wanna live..i wanna breathe..

fathers be good to your daughters

i'd rather be alone than lonely..and right now..

i'm pretty lonely..

i've won in this game of treachery
made myself master of miseries
grew up playing your game
grew accustom to the pain.

fell in love with a man named stan - junk girl

i fell in love with a soul
unknown to the world
he grew really cold
wandered streets wandered alleys
never could he find his sanctuary

from the puddles he was born
like an unclean star he shone
and always was he so alone

my dark angel
i'll take you in my arms
let me embrace this moment
where you'll be cleansed
with salt water fresh
and the heart of a........
like mine?

what the hell am i writing?
i've no idea..don't ask..

gonna go

STONE.

2005-05-25T14:43:00.000+08:00

heyho..

in class now..

feeling kinda screwd...

hope tmw goes fine...

don't wanna get sweetheart smashed...

only thing i can do now is

HOPE

2005-05-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

hmm..someone lied today..

so much for family...

screw you..

went jamming today at clarke quay..Garage..nice guy..anthony..he couldn't keep his shirt on..room was pretty good..there was this band..they were good..vocalist was wonderful..they played yellow ans some her song..

then after jamm went esplande..sat usual spot..yupp..somwhow that place reminds me of stuff..yeahh..then together me and dira got sad..haha..

walked and walked..went old chang kee..missed the train on purpose..then home..

sat and sun spent at changi..don't wanna elaborate..

think i'm gonna go write a song or something..yeahh...

i don't want to go to school

TOMORROW.

2005-05-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dream she has..

take me over when i'm gone..

tripping hard falling down onto the ground..
cause i can't stand up and i can't fall down..
cause i'm somewhere in the middle of this..

cause i can see the pain in you..
and i can see the love in you..

the angels they burn inside for us..
are we ever gonna learn to fly?
the devils they burn inside of us..
are we ever gonna come back down?

i've got to be honest,
i think you know,
we're covered in lies and thats okay,
but there's somewhere beyond this,
i know, but i hope i can find the words to say,

i'm always gonna worry bout the things that could make us cold..

hey you!
could you ever fall for me
the way i fell for you
and do you dwell upon the thoughts that I occupy
or do you give yourself things to do..

so why are you running away?

man, it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
lord, it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all
oh look now, there you go with hope again
but i'll be sure your secret is safe with me
oh, you're so sure i'll be leaving in the end
treating me like i'm already gone
but i'm not, i will stay where you are always
i will stay, i will stay, i will stay (all of now)

cause I am, taking it all back, thats every word that I said
for every word that you could never get the nerve to say
taking it all back, thats evey promise i made
for every promise you could never get the nerve to say

pay no more than absolutely zero..

i'll try not to make you cry..

man it takes a silly girl......

2005-05-18T18:12:00.000+08:00

bro just got home..and it just rained..

sweeetttt......

haha..so i got home bout 30 mins ago..mum was outside gardening..then i watered the plants for her..yupp..so my pinafore was wet and i threw it in the washing machine..was suppose to anyways..haha..

hey....bro got home took out comic jumped onto my bed like it was his..*looks at bro*

oi you!haha..

ok..so we gona eat now..mum cooked curry..mum said i can just fry egg and eat with yests sambal..haha..

hmm...will eat rice with curry..then later i wanna buy bread..haha..

ok..so today was rather ok..yupp..had that life skills thing..was sorta crap lar..
ended at 2..then went macs with deen dira mary...long time havent been to macs together..haha..

so ate..then deen and mary left..so me read bio dira did geog..yadayada...
knight in shining armour came picked dira up..then i studied awhile..realised i was falling asleep and went home..got onto bus slept the whole ride and when i reach AMK couldn't wake up..haha..

so here i am now..gonna eat..yupp..

*on vineland past the candle shrine..*

2005-05-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

been back at 8 past two days..

tired..

so mon was kinda screwd aft sch..me and bindi went to 'visit' haig girls..
supposedly CIP but got no one there..
then came back sch..assisted Mrs. T. with the sec 1s..
they got potential..haha..
then went dinner with rach..
stuff and stuff..
went home dunno take what bus..then change drop at city hall and i took cab..
dad was home..asked why i back so late...
told him i got the bus at 7..then he couldn't say anything liao..he knows that it cant take more than an hour to get home sometimes..

today was friggin pissed at Ms. S..
we're suppose to have a free period and she took it just like that w/o asking us or anything..maybe we had something to do..which we did..
all of us friggin tired lar...two whole bloody hours of SS..
then pretty much okay after that..
afy sch ate..rot..yada yada..jammed..home..took a can when i got to AMK..thought dad was gonna be home again..
now i'm broke...the money i've put aside for shirt and strap gone.

don't know what to say already...
sick and tired of the crap i get from certain people..and it's just not Ms. S..

"open up my eyes..startled with daylight..
another sleepless night turns color black and white.."

2005-05-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

just practiced geet...

hope that wasnt too loud...sweating now..haha...

so got my uniforms ironed..just gotta lean up room and pack bag...haha..

yest:

so woke up at 8.30..
went market and stuff..got out at 11.30?yeahh..but i was late..haha..
so wet bank drew cash met the rest at banquet..
then wati for nirosha..we left..
yada yada..
gema was ok..
then to grans..
inpired to write a song..

*what's the use of a rose when u can't find the one you love..?*

yupp..haha..
so slept at grans..danny cute as usual..haha..when i just came he stared at em one kind like that..i wanna carry him he don't want...haha..

today:

woke up at 7..saw danny up..played with him..haha..he was gonna bite my toe or smt..
then slacked..watched tv..bathed..din't really eat..now i'm kinda hungry..haha..
so went meet dad at ard 2..went Joe's..my uncle..
he got FOUR CUTE LITTLE KITTENS..mum don't let me and bro take one..
least i got pics of them..
they were so cute and pretty..haha..one was pretty..though all male kittens..haha..
ooh..norman quit school..*shrugs*
yup..then dad wanna go afghanistan..
parents and bro ate..yup..
then msged dira..haha..
yada yada..met her at tm..haha
suddenly my family got one extra person who's taller than the rest..haha..
yupp..then walked walked..bro wanted find some cd..haha..
don't have..my shoe also don't have...so bought school shoes..haha..size 3..heh..
then went macs..drink..then..home...yeahh..haha..
all the while dira extra..haha..*amused*

yup yup..got home ard 8.45 there..looked for smt..can't find it still..just hope it's in school..yeahh..

yup..think i figured out how to play shut up w/o tiring myself much..
but still bit slow on the F C G something transition..everything in splits..tiring..haha..

HAPPY ONE MONTH BROWN EYED BEAUTY!!

yup..and one month band..haha..

thank you manager for reminding me...

will go clean up..

buenos noche...

2005-05-13T11:25:00.000+08:00

heyho......

in com lab now..supposedly do malay..
find the definasi of syair..found liao..hahaha..

well well....

oi!!*turns to my left*

hello!!!!

and that was sharatul..

haha..

yuppyupp..getting cold and BORED...hehe...

wheee...gg trg today..should i bring home the geet?elect i mean..

yes?

no?

yes?

no?

orang dah ckp yes maseh tanyer2 lagi.. apeeeerrrr ajer... eeshhh

since when my blog got malay arh???

haha..yup yup..sharatul again..haha..eh..amp heavy lar!!!how?

huh??trolly???

zid is

SLOW

YESSS SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW HOW TO SPELL TROLLEY PROPERLY... SHEESHNESS ZIDDDD

hahahahaha....typo lar..... wad only zidd is bluffing.. coz she's a really really really bad speller in actual fact.. yepp..

since when???

ALWAYS.

oh. *too lazy argue*

haha..ok.i'm still bored.........

my finger hurts..

going going

GONE

2005-05-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

today had so much time to chill and play geet..but no one to play too...no room to play by myself..and once again i am inspired...

just wrote out a verse...sounds kinda messy lar..

my mid finger on my left hand kinda hurts..play geet too much liao..fingers tired..

just realised i got two projects to be completed soon...bummer..least its in grps..

still...

bummer...

been listening to the corrs since last nite..

milo bars and redbull=loads of energy..

so i had that before jam that day and rae had redbull and kitkat(very sweet stuff)

so we weren't tired after jam but at night both of us couldn't sleep..though we were tired..and i am kinda tired now..and i'm actually getting sleep...

tomorrow don't seem so bright..

inspired once again...(wrote 3 lines)

that's it!!pack then....

SLEEP

2005-05-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

hey...

just did my english speech thing..think it's pretty ok..yeahh..

well..well..today was pretty ok?

yeahhh..went by normal..though it kinda was a bit draggy first half...

wasn't really in the mood to do anything..

and why do people ask me if i'm okay when i'm usually the same quite me..

was just tired today..no worries yeah?

ooh..asked bro read my speech..haha..don't think he'll get it...

oh yeahh..had 2 hrs session today..was very productive..think if we had 3 hrs even more productive..haha..

yupp..did a good job people..i need learn barre!!FAST!!

would make my life so much simpler...haish..

well..then got home..was in a pretty good mood..so was mum..then i bathed..

bout 5 mins later heard mum shouting..then i took my time bathing..

came out mum still shouting...bro got back aunt Janet's math paper..he failed..

then tmw he got his mid yr math..how like that? i have no idea..

we both suck in math..

so mum mood spoiled..so was mine..

she was lecturing bro and indirectly lecturing me..

made me feel all guilty again..she said that when meet the parents right..

what ever my teacher says she gonna say that at home also i'm not focused..play geet only..

that's not true..what about those nights i did math like for the whole night...and when i was in my room frantically scribbling stuff on foolscap and pressing my calculator and looking at notes and typing and all those..and i bring my geet to sch..so i don't play that much at home anymore..one of the reasons why i keep the geet in sch..so that i can concentrate and do stuff at home...

hmm...since i've done speech guess i'll go iron uniforms?yeahh...

dammit..didn't bring bio home..study tmw..got to..

"i'd rather be alone than lonely.."

and right now i feel lonely...don't ask why..not as though i got the answer..heh..

"oh look what you've done..you've made a fool of everyone.."

jet playing on my discman...can bring to sch tmw liao..

bro gave me back my earphones..hmm...

worried for him...

will go....

"and i just can't wait to be king..."

2005-05-08T17:02:00.000+08:00

before i forget..

HAPPY MOM'S DAY!!!to all moms.. (:

yuppyupp...

wrote another song..was inspired after watching daredevil..haha..

mebbe i'll get more inspiration after watching elektra?hehe..

oh yeahh..and manager..should be proud of me..i wrote a happy song!!!haha..yup..

i'd say it's me happiest by far..

though i've written only two songs..haha..

ooh..mum cooking today..hehe..i'm...kinda hungry...

ooh..was raining whole morning...recently it stopped..

gonna practice once again on the geet..yup..then sort my stuff out..then...iron uniforms..then..eat?then relax..slack..sleep..dammit..i realised we're suppose to write a speech..by when?i do not know..will do that too later i guess..

2005-05-08T08:47:00.000+08:00

woke up bout 20 mins ago..

had a really weird dream..

least the first part was pretty ok..just the end..

dream:

so i have no idea where i was...mary and dira were with me..we were stuck somewhere with loads of snakes..even real small ones...i got bitten on my toe..so i tried suck it out then suddenly dunno who appeared outta nowhere..we were running with packs outta the place..and rae hitched a ride for us to some airport..some lady gave us the ride..then me rae van dira mary were at the airport lar..apparenly someone told us to clean up..cause we were in mud..so we looked ard for for toilets at the aiport..then we found one..but we didn't change..

somehow we ended up at some building..me and rach..we were sitting at the steps and saw some tkgians with a choir girl..then some girl said.."come on your gonna be late for auditions" then i had some flashes of the crew being in a studio..guessed we already auditioned lar..so left me and rach..we were both hungry..

near the building got bazaar..so we both got burgers and sat at this awfully crowded table..think rach went to get a drink..i already ate half of my really good burger by then..so i turned ro my right and guess who i saw? Ms S.

so i concentrated on my burger couldnt help ti but turned right again..this time she saw me and gave me this mad mad at me look..then i felt rae sitting beside me..so i told her Ms. S was here lar..rae as usual.. "oh my god.." so Ms S came up to us..asked us what we were doing there.. rae "we're hungry what..so we're eating lar.." then Ms S. "no you're not you're sitting here with i have no idea who and chatting away.." rae "we just had jamming..we're hungry and we're here to eat" Ms. S "so you do go jamming" then i don't know what happen..rachel cursed..me "dammit i'm screwd..big time.." rae "me too i think" then we left the place..walked around..all i remember was that i felt really really screwd...

so yeahh...good dream turned bad....

woke up in the middle of the night wondering if i had to go sch..then i wondered..what happened sunday..realised it was sunday..then went back to sleep..

it's raining now..been raining since i've no idea when..kinda hungry...

will...

go do stuff...

2005-05-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

haish...

dad just bought that black & decker screw driver tool thingy for $140...

@ jln kayu..

me: how much dad bought that thing for?

mum : $140

me: $140?!? add another 20-40 can buy.....

mum: that on ecan use for a long time

me: that too what...

mum: *gives me look*

me: *heart breaks yet again*

yeahh...i don't get dad...

think he bought another one of those 'drums'...
he going fishing on Sunday..deep sea fishing..with uncle i guess..

rachel's 'all over again' stuck in my head...
beautiful song i tell you...

we got loads of talented people in this class..- me

haha..but it's true..we got really good singers and musicians...all bloody talented..
ooh..we got writers too...and potential artists...yeahh...

math was fun today..i got 12/15 for that spring..
Mr. Y called me a gundufart..haha...

cause he kept reminding us to write the X yet i forgot..haha..
but i gots improved..haha...i'm beginning to like graphs..for now..haha..yeahh...

parents and bro outside watching tv..think i wanna play geet a lil then sleep..
don't really feel like studying anymore..yeahh...will go..

later all...

'man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dream she has..'

2005-05-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

what's a name to a band?

we shouldn't go with what sounds cool..

we should go one that describes us..even if it sounds weird...

yeahhh....

bro: "you lost your red .5 pick right?"

me: "yeahh..why? you found it?"

bro: "nope..i got a .4 one"

me: "where you get it from? stop buying lar..waste money only"

bro: "i wanna buy i buy lar..my money what.."

me: "dude..you don't even play the guitar.."

bro: "so..?"

i don't get azri sometimes..i wanna teach him how to play he don't want..
then buy picks when he doesnt use em..so now he has more picks then me..

0.o

he doesnt even play...

that was an example of how unfair life can get sometimes..

yupp..

today did amath hmwk..haha..
damn i'm careless..
and Damn you dira..you're smart..haha
all the Ds...

PE did this vaulting thing..was fun..haha..yup..
*jump*jump*boing*
hehx..yeahh...

then legacy...Ms S. just had to spoil it...
we did the history presentations...
isn't legg suppose to be OUR period..that's like official slack period..
then yupp..had a few good ones i guess..*wasn't really paying attention*

ooh...Ms T. said class didn't do that well for bio???
but aren't we all so enthu and stuff?
maybe we just don't get that few chapters lar..i guess

crew: sat jam?from 2-4?how can?who can help me print stuff?chords..yeahh..and yeahh..we just jam at aljunied for now yeahh?other places not sure how the crowd is lar..if you know what i mean..yup..

not sure if im looking forward to tomorrow...
got trg..that's bout the best thing tomorrow..haha..

guess i'll go try complete my lit cover thing..

buenos noche......

2005-05-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

dad..if you got something against me borrowing guitars then just get me one lar!!

fuck off and let me do things my way for a change...

it's just two hundred bucks...

you bought those fishing 'drums' one cost = guitar..with that money i can get a squire...double that a fender...

it's just two hundred bucks for a lifetime....

screw you.

2005-05-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

manager and publicist cannot meet!!

it's too bloody noisy!!!

haish..*sniffsniff*

haha..hmm...suppose to have band meeting now..

rachel missing..went to look for meryl..that girl got dunno how many affair i tell you..

yupp...

i'm sleepy..damn tired...

backhurts..yeahh...

later.

2005-05-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

heyho...suppose to study..yeahh..(yeah on radio) haha...

hmm..i got inspiration...

anyways...here's a letter to you..

hey you..

do hope u stumble upon this somehow..
u shud be wide awake in ireland now..haha..
hope everything's fine yeah?
and i do hope that you return..
and yes i'm full of hope..
and dearest ed..you owe me a song...
that song...
yupp...so guess it's a goodbye for now...
guess i'll be waiting...
haha..guess u're grinning..
till then....

and that was my letter to ed..haha..
yupp..alritey..gotta hit the books...

no..not yet..haha..

so today went out with dira/flo/manager..
yup..

she's amused i wore a skirt...haha..took like 2 mins to realise it..
tsktsk..so slow...then...erm...walked, ate, walked, ate...haha
eh..what are you?my eating buddy?haha..

hmm..yeahh..heard candleburn at the esplanade...was sweet...haha..
suddenly i feel that i've the potential to be quite the romantic...hahaha..

and what's with those two girls?
i wave goodbye to my friend cannot arh?
i was just waving and you turned..so i waved and smiled at you too...haha..
hey..i'm being nice here..haha

think that's it..hehe..
later all...

"i'm gonna save the whales..and nobody can stop me."

2005-04-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

first part of today: sweet

second part of today: not so sweet

so morn went aiport at ard 8..met ed..had breakfast..gramps treated..hehe..

then we hung out..talked..bought sweets..talked..had coffee...talked..all the while waiting...

then round 12.30 off he goes...

"i'm leaving on a jet plane..don't know when i'll be back again.."

haha...sweet guy i tell you..haish..haha..

then home....

changed yada yada...

went queensway...

tried find my shoe..no size..haish..told my parents it's be better if i go find myseld..so wasted trip there...

then went to ikea..they bought stuff..ate..home...

so here i am...

"i want you to know that..i miss you...i miss you so!!!"

haha...

i dont get dad..don't let me get a pair of dunks cause he said it's too guy...and mum thinks that that pair is nice..

don't let me play geet i have no idea why...wanna borrow HIS old one from my cuz cannot..then mum said borrow from my friend...

isn't suppose to be better borrowing from your own cousin??

i don't get my family...

and bro..after watching elektra tried act all cool...

i nearly broke his finger...

haha....wanna fight with me at least make sure you're wearing underwear under that towel lar...haha..

ooh...i peeled skin off my lips..haha..dry skin..tsk tsk...told mum i need get lip balm then she say she got...i was amused...haha...

ooh...rach gots write song...

CREW: eh..we need name..and songlist....and...equipment list? and...yeahh..that's bout it...we need jam real soon!!!and get a name too....yupp...and dira..lead?yes?no?so we 3 or 4 man band?

i find my sad life amusing...

dad don't let me play geet when he encourages my cousins play it...
takes bro just 1 hr to get what he wants and me a whole lot of begging w/o getting it..like today..bro kept asking for a squirt bottle and he got it less then an hr and i've been asking for one since last year nvr got it..same goes with the brawn oral b toothbrush...
mum...which side u on?dad or mine?
bro...haish...

and what?my parents actually wanted a son for a first?

haish....

My sad life.....

2005-04-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

if only i could find a word to describe tonight...

haha..yeahh....haish...

too bad ed's leaving tmw...

gonna miss the guy somehow..haha..

yeahh...

later all...

2005-04-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

hey..at ed's...

nice room...

haha..it's neat..i'm impressed...

real neat...haha..

gotta go..pie calls!!!

2005-04-24T20:30:00.000+08:00

saw tiggs today...*ouch*

tiggs (short for tigger) is this small kitten me and bro sorta look otu for..
hi's hind leg sorta screwd..so he bounces abit everytime he walks..
hence the name tigger..
he's been missing the past week or so and i just saw yest..
his leg was badly injured..
think it's broken or smt...
wanna bring it to the vet badly..
dad of course don't allow lar..
haish..
i love tiggs..

well..well..

looked in the papers today..
after thinking bout it over and over again..
i really wanna join the competition as an individual..
though i sorta feel that i'll do better with a team behind me..
rather its just more comforting to have a crew to back u up..haha
yeahh..i wanna join that competition..
first prize 3000 bucks and a trophy..not bad eh?haha..

"yes, I'm grounded
got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded
all this pavement
guess I'll circle
while I'm waiting
for my fuse to dry

someday I'll fly
someday I'll soar
someday I'll be so damn much more
cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for.."

"man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has..."

2005-04-24T16:09:00.000+08:00

i'm suppose to be studying..

gonna update bout...

competition
dad
stuff

later...

later!

2005-04-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

hey all....
well...its round 8..

went to grans today..finally!!!
saw lil dan..miss him..haha..
so cheeky that tyke...
can walk abit liao..(reminds me of ms liao)

haha..we got this amath r.t Ms. Liao..haha..
very contrast to Ms. Lui..
yeahh..
ooh...few passed the chem test..
not me though..haha..no bad lar..

well..don't think we'll be jamming this week gang?
we need to rest..and as our dear manager says...do hmwk..haha..

oh yeahh..fri had two free periods..Ms S. dint come..
i was so prepared for the hist presentation..haha..
well..well...

upcoming tues got bio..
gonna study hard for it..

went bookshop earlier and guess what i saw....
A BLACK HARMONICA!!!

didn't buy it though..
haha..need to buy my notebook first..
have yet to get it..think tmw i go popular..
yeahh..

once again listening to the tap..
me having headache..haha..yeahh...
hmm...today is SATURDAY...

feels like a sunday to me..
*shrugs*
geet not home..in sch..
and i feel like writing a song now..haha..

will go study bio..gdnite...

"you're stubborn enough not to listen to others" (Ms S. on me..how true..)
"you're in sec sch..still can get away with stuff" (bro on jamming)
"so long sweet summer..." (sigh)

2005-04-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

I'm zid from firefly..hang tite!!

haha..two hours today..jammed...haha..
tiring...
good job gang!!!
was good though..we improved loads..yeahh...
and i realise that my voice is totally diff recorded...
i sound like some kid wanting my voice to break..haha..
oh yeahh..shaun came..then happened aft that we played our very first successful recording..haha...
thank you very much Manager for coming down..
and dira..i love your voice...

today sch was pretty ok..yea...haha..tmw gonna be tiring?haha..
gots presentation and stuff..
bio was fun...dint know that ms T. could play the piano..haha..
then we did stuff...
yeahh..haha...
guess i'm kinda drained...
tmw got trg too..haha..yupp..
me listening to the tape now...
we sound good..yea...
gonna pack bag and stuff..

hope to sleep by 10?
11 latest..yeahh..haha..yup...

later all...

2005-04-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

*grins at rae and dira*

welcome to another session with firefly..here we go!!

hahaha...i so love doing that!!!

ok..today jam-ed...was super duper fun!!!!

recorded with stef's recorder..haha...

we sound potentially good.. (:

so proud of us..

btw..sorry i kept saying that it was screwd..haha..

IT WAS!!!eh..1hr warm-up kinda long..haha..

okay!!highlights of the tape...

01) me repeating.. "welcome to....."

02) rachel was like nuts...kept saying stuff like "whoo" "hoi hoi" and what nots..

03) drums was diff for every single song..

04) rachel was dunno doing what with drums..crazy liao...so noisy...

05) i kept messing up MY lyrics...haish..tsktsk..call myself songwriter...

06) i said.. "sekejap..i get my guitar to sound okay?"

07) i kept saying we were screwd...

08) same song over and over again..nvr boring..was fun..

09) me: "welcome to another session with firefly.." rach "whoo" 0.o

10) we kept messing up!!!!

things we gotta learn:

rach : play softer!!!poor drums!!and stuck to the beat girl!!

me : sing with my diaphragm..haha..lyrics...sing in the correct key...

dira : erm..learn how to play..quick!!!

me and rae : cannot rely on v. too much lar..haha..

ok..today was fun..haha..

during bio ms T. motivated us to work so that could watch Gattaca..that story again..haha..everyone's perfect..just cause that guy got imperfections doesnt mean that you gotta terrorise his life right?haha..

then legacy...had my SECOND TSC..haha..talk bout studies..

erm..lit was kinda boring..haha..ok lar..

then amath..ms liao..ever the fast..haha..and pretty?haha..

pe..ok lar..dint run..did diggs..haha..

that's it..

aft sch studied...then went down celebrate sharatul's b'day...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!!

haha..yupp...then went jam..was 5 mins late?haha..tmw gg again..throat itchy..

we need vocalist..anyone out there???haha..

then...who coming tmw arh?

today 3 ppl so fun liao..haha...

cant wait for tmw...yay!!!

looking at the timetable should be a breeze lar..haha..yay!!!!

cya all!!!sleepy liao....

2005-04-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

ahhh...

bugger....

realise i cant do loads of stuff without macromedia flash...

and without my windows installer working..

so now cant install flash...

hence i cant go mcr web and play helena or sweet revenge...

and i cant install messenger..

bugger...

can't wait for tomorrow...

2005-04-19T19:31:00.000+08:00

good evening all...

heyhey..

got back frm sch at bout 6?yeah..

today was pretty ok..

emath was ok lar..hope i pass..haha..

think can..then again everytime i think so fail..

haha..nvm..

cant wait for tmw and thurs!!!yay!!will be jammin..haha..yup..

couldnt stop thinking bout it since last week..

that session really rocked and it was our first!!haha..

firefly rocks!!!!

haha...

think i gonna eat then plan tmw's session and then call rach..hmmm

mebbe i call rach first then plan..haha..yeahh...

cant wait!!!!

have a great night ahead...

2005-04-19T01:43:00.000+08:00

so here i am...

it's 1.43 in the morn..haha

i sorta just woke up..

gonna do sum stuff..haha

and tmw's emath CA..

think i'm screwd..

and hungry...

dad has been buying not nice food..

and now i'm gonna go do my stuff..

good morning all...

have a great day ahead..

2005-04-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

heyho...

big bro sha came over today..

fixed my com.. (:

almost fixed..smt still screwd...haha..

said he'll help me tmw..

think he out clubbing now..with me other bros..hehe.

so com now all xp-ish..

feels like sch comp..haha..

yup..

jammed yest..at aljunied..

was great!!haha

and manager..what's that i see on your blog?it's copyrighted...the words...

haha...bro said got this place at peninsula 18 bucks equipment good..how bout it crew?

at potong pasir got two...both under some guy called ah boon..haha..18 20 20..yup..diff price..

then got one behind macs boat quay there..damn small..very budget not good..haha..

bro plays bass..

thought me stuff..

haha..he was amused that i could play and sing..haha...

yup..

well..me gonna go...

do stuff...

later all...

*she's a brilliant disguise of an angel.....

2005-04-07T06:56:00.000+08:00

heya...
wrote the poem from memory..
anws..here it is..

i sit across an empty chair
the candlelight burns bright
i slump in my chair waiting
i've been waiting..
i play with the ring you gave me
remember my last birthday?
(i pretend you're here)
you look t me
i tell you you look amused
you tell me you are.
you decide to get to the point.
i don't let you complete your sentence
you're beautiful. i said.
you stop. silent. stunned.
you're beautiful. i said again
that's how i fell in love with you
you're perfect in and out,
(i can pretend no more)
i take the rose infront of me
i kiss it's petals
all i see is your face
and all i taste is your lips.
that's it.
(i whisper)
i've waited long enough
i place the rose on your seat
i see you at the entrance
you say something
but i don't hear or see you
i walk past whispering

goodbye my love

goodbye...

that's all!!!cya!!!

2005-04-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

hello.....

gimme a reason to believe..
so gimme all ur poison and gimme all your pills
gimme all your hopeless hearts and make me ill..

you're running after something that you'll never kill
if this is what you want then fire at will...

that was dira singing mcr..haha..yup..

and nissa is staring blankly at the screen and amirah and crew erm...gossiping?yeahh..haha

DIRA IS LOVESICK!!!

WHERE'S LOVERBOY??

oh..question answered...

he gots soccer...

hahahaha....tsk tsk...

i sit across an empty chair..
i'm waiting for you
i've been waiting..
(i pretend you're here)
i play with the ring you gave me
remember my last birthday?
i tell you you look amused..
you tell me you are
you're reluctant to talk
you decide to get to the point
i don't let you complete your sentence.
your beautiful....i said..
you look at me. stunned. silent.
your beautiful..i said again.
you're perfect in and out
(i cant pretend no more)
i take the rose infront of me..
i kiss its petals
all i see is your face
and all i taste is your lips
i place the rose on your seat
i walk out..
i see you at the entrance..
you start to say something
i don't hear or see you
i walk past and whisper..

goodbye my love...

goodbye....

that was written last nite..

yup..

good day all.

taa(:

DIRA SURUH MAKAN SEKARANG JUGAKKKKKKK!!!!

and that was teh first time malay is seen in my blog..

record breaker..

later alligators!!

*and i miss you, i miss you so far.
and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard. *
the ghost of you // mcr.

2005-03-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

heyho...i'm in sch..sorry for not updating for so long...haha
guess i got lazy..

yup..

whee..

nurul behind me..

we supposedly do eng but..

*shrugs*

haha..yepp...

alritey..me go look for song chords now..

later all..

(:

2005-03-08T15:31:00.000+08:00

heya.....
in class now..haha..
sorta just did cheerlead..pretty cool..

yup..fun fun..hehe

gonna be eating in bout 10 mins?

hmm..only me and rach left in class...

the rest all left already...

me already in the holiday mood..haha..

seems like i got a packed sched..haha..

seems like it only..yeahh..

tmw jnrs game...

jia you!!!!you can do it!!no pressure..just play yoru game..and its YOUR game.. (:

yup..haha.me havent been updating at home cause mom locked my com up..

its in lock up..

*what happened to us?we used to be so perfect....now we're lost and lonely....did i lose my only??*

hoobastank..yup..

they're a good band.. (:

*we have to escape...and i will go anywhere if u just lead the way...*

gtg..

2005-02-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

good evening all..

haha..me gonna do ss and that lit pp slide soon...yup..

hmm..plan to sleep early tonight actually..

dira was here earlier today...

no life i tell you..from tamp come down all the way to amk..haha..

yup..wedding singer on now..haha..yeahh..

tmw got a math remedial..then most prob go for their game..then....study?

tues there's amath CA and cc trg aft sch..bummer..

then wed there's that amath review test..

haish..

ok..think will do lit now and ss mebbe tmw morn?haha..yeahh..

cya! (:

*this is the part where i love you too much..*

2005-02-15T19:19:00.000+08:00

7.24

good evening all..

me got back bout half hr ago..
bathe liao...yup..

shall update bout yes..in two words..

was good.. (:

yup..tanx everyone..for all the nice sweet stuff.. (: i love em..

i love me fairygodmums.. (:

i love me class.. (:

i love me mom.. (:

i love everyone.. (:

i love all my sweethearts.. (:

haha..yup.. (:

today:

bio was pretty ok i guess..studied last nite..so yeahh..think shud be able pass lar..haha..but dunno how well..oh welll...*shrugs*

had cc trg after sch..lasted till...3 only..haha..cause SOMEONE broke 5 eggs..haha..yup..

then stayed crapped awhile with jan,char,renee and rach..suppose to study..but aft two min sof that went to play the piano!!yup..not me..rach that is..she played and i tried to sing to the right key..haha..always go off one..dun ask me why..

*i want you to know that..i miss you!!i miss you so!!!*

recently i've been getting that i miss you part wrong..wonder why..hmm..

gonna go study chem now..wish me luck.. (:

cya later alligator..in a while crocoldile..

7.31

2005-02-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

good evening everybody... (:

done lit.. (:

yup..

it rained today.. (:
i got me roses..(:
i got me apples.. (:
i had me a good breakfast.. (:
all at tekka..(:
haha.. (:

what more can i say.. (:

hope tmw will be good..yeahh..haha

yup..yesterday was good..

went to bugis...esplanade...fair...marina...home.. (:
was good..(:
slept like a baby when i got home..woke up at 10 this morn and i slept at 11 last nite..

yup..me gonna go esso and get rubber bands..haha..tie hair tmw?hehe..

cya tmw...

HAPPY SAINT VALENTINE'S!! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!! (:

2005-02-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

my new valentine's day rose policy:

zid will only give roses to sweet souls who are loving in everyway possible even though they're mean but you just love em for that like that guy in Austin Powers and mojo jojo.and who are worthy of roses on saint valentine's on zid's standards.

have a great day all... (:

2005-02-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

heyho...

today:

usual woke up at 5 yada yada..got to sch near 6.50...then talked...to whoever..waited for rach as usual..then yada yada...went down at 7.05..

so played..haha..then assembly...then to class..

first period was...chem..6 absentees..haha..farz, sharatul, stef, vernica, nirosha and charu..haha..yeahh..so class was kinda roomy and quiet..in a way..sie hui's table was away..so no abuse..haha..anws..the class kinda dead lar..everyone no mood..haha..yeahh..so basically whole lesson just stoned...then bio..that was ok lar..i kept counting down the time the last 30 mins..needed fresh air and the sun badly..haha..

recess...nothing much happened..the usual...crapped with dira and mary..deen wasn't there..then..as usual they ate prata..me just sat and stoned and smiled to myself...my silent laughs..haha..yup..then..walked em to class..got to mine and that was mt..cikgu gave us the low down(that what u call it??) on the bahas thingy..we lost by two marks..haha..then..read the book..

got back to class and it was emath..that was pretty ok too..time flew..but i still stoned..just wasn't it the right mood lar..then we had eng..that one crapped wee bit..me started to feel again..didn't feel as numb as i was in the morn..most prob cause sch ending and training starting soon..haha..then..yeahh..

ate luch with rach..then we discussed something..haha..broke liao..then..i had trg..that girl rot there till the others came..think i ate too much..then trg i still dead and stiff..didn't push off properly and stuff..lost my vibe..then i moved like kinda slow and stuff..just wasn't in the right mood..though i did get high for a moment..sorry jnrs!!haha..had fun..but me still not in the right mood..so yeahh..

then aft trg waited for rach..my turn to wait..haha..then i did stuff lar..ms saffiah talked to me bout some class stuff a while..yeahh..then i updated my sched..yeahh..then aft bout..an hr?i think..then..we wanted go home..so decided take 31 to kallang then take train lar..then felt like chilling at macs a while..so we did..haha..while walkign to the mrt station saw stan and jodd..then got onto our train..yada yada..got off at city hall..that girl took bus and me train again..then met mum and bro at amk..had dinner..the place was unusually quiet..haha..cause a lot of shops closed..haha..

then got home me quickly bathed..haha..felt bloody icky and tired..still do..the tired part only..haha..then got on the com..yup..bout 15 mins later...got msg...from..dira..me just got off the fone with fairygodmums..yeahh..tmw gg out?i guess..

dad still not home..working OT..the whole day..sad..haish..i'm tired..me gotta tak ecare of ankle now..dun wanna screw it up..kinda felt it cracked today..twice..one was a good crack the 2nd one not good..cause i messed up my footwork..i've been meesing up my footwork..why??haha..

dear ankle..pls be nice to me this season..i know u always screw up round this time but just not at the moment k?please...

yup..me tired..gonna go do sum other stuff then off to bed..haha..

nite all...

2005-02-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

good evening all...

while waiting for my pizza which is late i shall update...

got back from grans bout and hr and half ago?yeahh..
then for 15 mins persuaded mum and dad to order pizza..

just called..the lady's nice..haha..said she'll get the restaurant manager to call or smt cause yeahh..its bout 15 mins late..haha..usually late they'll call one..haha..

well..yada yada..no doubt's don't speak still stuck in my head..its such a beautiful song..haha..yup..

3 days away from saint valentine's..
3 days away from friendship day..
3 days away from mom's b'day..
the no. 3...

me having thoughts...yeahh...

wonder if its from my head or my heart..hehx..sounds kinda odd..but yeah..

*i'm falling into memories of you, and things we used to do....*

i wonder...

have a great night all..will see some of you tmw..

2005-02-10T08:27:00.000+08:00

goooooooooooooood morn...*smile*

*looks at clock*i'm up early...

was up at seven..slept at 2..5 hrs..hehe...

feeling kinda high, dun ask me why..

ooh..migrain gone!!finally!!haha

later think we going grannies..dad working OT today..sad..
i'm hungry..no food at home..think me going out later..to get food that is...

my rooms a mess..

and my radio still doesnt wanna play my no doubt cd...

shall copy it onto my com.. :)

gonna go now..

have a great day ahead all...

2005-02-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

*don't speak, i know what you're thinking,
and i don't need your reasons, don't tell me cause it hurts..*

don't speak by no doubt..lovely song.. (: yup..alritey...

first...i apologise cause i don't seem to be updating as often...kinda got bored with this lil thing called a blog..haha..yup..

today: was supposedly to study but....migrain!!!!been having it the last 3 days?mebbe more..can u believe that??i only took asprin today and my head still hurts..ate at round 10.30 there..then took it at 11..then watched monkeybone..taped it..love that movie man..haha..then slept at 12.15..woke up every now and then...was sweating..then at two...woke..head still hurt..from the sofa to my bed..woke up bout every half hr..my windows were wide open..as in the grill too..so i saw the sky..it was so pretty with the clouds and all..haha..then i saw shapes and drifted back to sleep..haha...it was nice..cause i saw the beeeeeg blue sky then i was sweating which kept me cool from the heat that made me sweat..haha..it was nice...head still hurts though..think i gotta take two pills..yeahh...and now my boom box refuses to play my no doubt cd...it plays every other cd i got cept no doubt...so now its playing on the com..haha..according to my cousins no doubt screwd up my musical yada yada..haha...or smt like that..haha..oh and dad just had to play the guitar infront of me..*jealous*

yest: so sch was half day..haha..kinda nonsense..no lion dance..it seemed odd..haha..CNY and no lion dance..but the sec 2 CSP ppl did a pretty good job..something new for a change...haha..sorta anws..dunno why but that morn i just needed to pee every now and then..haha..then me and sarah wondered lost for bout 15 mins..went outta sch..she saw who she was looking for and just so the three fairygodmoms were there..haha..then sarah went off and i got stuck..was suppose go home and get changed meet the gang..nrl, amirah, sharatul, nirosha, rach at bugis..haha...i was late..as usual..i have no idea why but everytime i meet rach or rach is there i'll be late..haha..*shrugs* i just realised that bout a min ago...haha..then...amirah and sharatul went off first..so went starbucks..the barrista so cool..haha..then talked..yada yada..left me and rach..walked around bugis till 5+ haha..yup..walked and walked and walked..then we found this really nice skirt...i like...but it costs 70 bucks..and dad thinks that i'm crazy..haha..*shrugs*

tmw: mite go grannies..haha..mum say i gotta wear skirt...what's with skirts????*wonders* then i told her i'll put on that outfit that she likes and dad hasnt seen that she said u should dress like that more often..and my mind just went blank..just like that..like somebody switched it off..or pulled the cable or smt..haha...well..hmm..me will go fix my com..and then..get some nice songs..then clean up my room and i'll call it a day.. (:

cya all....

*hey you..with the wedding dress on.....*
-no doubt, hey you..

*hush darling.....*

2005-01-30T13:50:00.000+08:00

heya...
last nite was just another saturday night..haha..
dint go to that thing in the end...yeahh..was reading The English Teacher
then fell asleep..woke up ard 4 mum ask to get ready cause going wedding..haha..
went then waited for grans..ate yada yada..went to grans aft..than left at ard 8.45 got dinner went home..cant remember what time we reached home..haha...yeahh..

woke up this morning did stuff..yup..ate..now here..

fri nite i got stranded..haha..no.1 left me for sum bar..no.2 left me for sum session..no.3 left me for another session..and no.4 just left me..haha..

ooh...amirah not talking to me..haha..damn ..i feel bad...hehe..sorta anyways..wonder if she's gonna talk to me tmw..haha..well..i'm gonna go..mite be meeting that basketballer monkey later..haha..yeahh...at 4 after her piano..

*fading and broken...*

2005-01-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

heyho....
i feel low...
haha..no actually..well..kinda anyways..
haha..dun get me its alright.. (:
got back bout half hr ago..
me in shorts and blouse..haha..
well...had sum stuff on..yeahh...
talked alot..haha..
i'm gonna keep my style..haha..yeahh..
hmm...me just revamped com again..yup..
today was pretty ok i guess...after school was kinda a bummer...
i know what i gotta do so can i just do things my way...
if we need guidance we'll ask...that's for sure...
i'm too lazy to type...
wanna go jalan kayu to eat...
cya...

*i'll guess i'll never get to......*

2005-01-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahhahaa.....

i'm listening to dream street..can u believe that???dream street..haha..that guy..jesse whatshisname was from the BOYband..haha..funny...haha...cant believe it man..hahaha..oh yeahh..i remember how i got the song now..bro wanted me dl songs from the pokemon OST..haha..yeahh..ehh..got Adam Sandler songs too...haha..

hey!!!!!!!my fave song.....haha..not really lar..Josie and The Pussycats..haha..hmm..me looking for that song..cant remember what's the title..haha..

*i love it when you call me big poppa
put your hands in the air
and wave it like you just don't care*

something like that..haha..yeahh...haha..yup..

ooh...today was pretty interesting..yeahh...there were those moments...where...hmm..lets just say hist was like legacy for a while..yeahh...i shall say this openly....basically the whole leader thing in class...i shall say that its kinda a downer..i noe that they wanna like make things easier by just having one grp of ppl in charge of things in a way..but then where's that everyone should practice leadership thing?we've been using the same system for the past two years so we should be okay with it what..we were 'brought up'using this particular system that certain find...useless??..but that's how we do it ard here and thats how we want it to be..after three years we practically noe who is who...so..yeahh..it does not mean that the 'vocal ones' would get elected or smt..haha..that sounds funny..haha..ok..this whole thing...actually i have no idea why i'm wasting my time writing this..cause we all(you know who you are) what's going on and there isnt much to say actually...u step into class bring up the subject and we all feel the same way....so lets just get the bloody elections over and done with instead of wasting our time since our 'mentor' thinks different..what's inportant..sort of anyways is that we all agree on certain issues here rite? and if the class agrees but the mentor doesnt and wanna use the system that we're against..then that would make us some rebel group..which sounds really cool yet..not..haha..i get myself..hope u get me too..dun wanna dwell on this subject any longer..haha..that's it...

i'm just stating my very long point..haha..yeahh...

cya all...good luck for CA tmw!!!*smile*waves*

2005-01-23T02:31:00.000+08:00

JEANETTE!!
SHAMEEN!!
RACHEL!!
BAND THIS WEEK!!
ask alex along for weekends lar since she stay and sch so far..
I NEED SONGS TOO!!
simple ones..oasis can?
call me, beep me if u wanna reach me!! (:

2005-01-23T02:24:00.000+08:00

heyhey...

it's two in the morn..make that two thirty..
just about done testing me new scanner..haha..
scanned negatives.. (: works..
dunno where the folder is though..haha..will find it later..now my table no more space..
haha..yeahh...ooh..me sleepy..i think..slept while doing bio..guess i was still tired..slept late the other night woke up pretty early..yup..

went grannies on fri..danny getting noisier by the day..haha..getting fat too...haha..he had mood swings..he let me kiss him though..cried when my cuz and aunt tried too..hehe..love my lil cuz..he's not even a year old and already he looks like one..haha..fat..haha..ate quite alot at grans..was half awake..haha..then evening went meet abah and family..went parkway..fidah was sick..so..dint crap as much..haha..bro got his new discman..looks better than the old..yup..ooh..i shall update botu OBS when its daylight..haha..but not today..yup..gotta get work done..haha..better get soem sleep before i go nuts..haha..

sweet dreams everyone...*a moment to myself*

2005-01-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

hmm..sch was ok..aft sch was..madness?haha..yeahh..had fun..hope i have fun tmw too..

2005-01-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

hey....

today...school was a blast...haha..it was okay...yeahh..tmw got eng CA..haha..yup..then..hmm..i dunno what to say...mum on the fone with aunt..bro bathing..and me...have a migrain...haix..i dun like this...plus we got no dinner tonite cause mum not cooking..haha..yea..told her make pasta..we got sauce but no..that thing..haha..told her cook maggi then she said sian..then i say call 62353535 then she say no cash then i ask her what we gonna eat she say she dunno..haha..well..will figure out something later..yea...head bloody hurts...ooh..can i got get an MC for tmw?haha..well...cya...

*what am i suppose to do?*

2004-12-31T14:29:00.000+08:00

hey....

hmm..shall update bout yest?yes?okay..
went to cali's..yup..haha..dint do math in the end..played PS which she claims she told me and xh bout it..haha..she did not!hehe..yup..left round 3.50 for pp..met maryam and co..haha..funny thing happened..yup..talked and stuff..then at 5?yeahh..left..went home..that's when the funny thing happened..hehe..my arm kinda hurts from it..haha..got home then washed clothes..read...

today..woke up near 11..mum was like yelling 'tatak' over and over again..that's what my younger cousins call me..haha..tatak..hehe..cause they cant talk right yet..haha..yeahh..then dad was like let her sleep lar..haha..mum will always wake me up when she thinks i should be up and dad just let me sleeps..haha..she asked me go market get eggs and green chilli..yup..got it got home ard..1.30?herm called...haix..i can't stand the way my parents make excuses when i wanna go out with him..apparently they dun like me hanging out with my own cousin..it's crap..we've just started hanging out again recently..he's my cousin..they always took us out when we were younger..so why cant i hang out with him?its just pure crap..dun feel like typing no more...

2004-12-30T09:56:00.000+08:00

hey....my body hurts..couldn;t really sleep...so i slept funny..haha..and it seems like for the past 24hrs i've had rude awakenings..yest when i had a nap..dad just came in my room and shouted to wake me up..got schoked..last nite..had a msg when i was falling asleep..hahah..got shocked..this morning..bro took pillow over my head and open the curtains..that was not sso shocking..but...a min later when i was about to fall asleep again..he grabbed the 'rubber' part of my shorts pulled it up and let it go...mum thought of it as funny...haix..haha..still kinda sleepy though..haha..yeahh..shall clean up wee bit then...round 11.30 head for cali's...reach there in bout an hr..then we do math!!!haha..then we rot...then we do sum other stuff..then we go home.. (: haha..sleep deprivation is messing with my brain..hehx..that's it then...

*take away my anxiety*

2004-12-27T16:14:00.000+08:00

hey..just got back from amk central..yup..

mum ask me accompany her since she wanna go get my bro's report bk..haha..he er..failed..but got promoted lar..good thing it's just religious sch..haha..well..then got his books..yup..went to alter my pants...wed can collect..after 6..haha..can lar..then...hmm..hopefully this thurs go cali's? then one day go jam?then heard mum say sat wanna go picnic AGAIN!!!haha..that time went got lil tyke Dan..now go got big lil bro zeed and sis..haha..yar..zeed zid..hehe..it's yazeed actually..haha..yup..hmm...guess i gonna go now..yup..

later...

*sometimes ignorance rings true*

2004-12-25T01:52:00.000+08:00

hey...got a song stuck in my head..haha...well...it's eventually by M2M..hehx..*shrugs*
today...went help uncle at his new catering job..tens mins away only...went ard 3...did sum crappy stuff with herm..haha..yeahh..was fun.. (: yup...

hmm..think i getting sick....mum just made me take febs..this pill..thenb i lay down cause my body aching..and she was like u just took a pill then u lie down..so here i am..haha...haix..i want my bed...shall go do sum other stuff...

MERRY X'MAS ALL!!!! (:

2004-12-24T14:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Santa,

how are you this holidays?i'm fine. yup. i shall get to the point. (:
i hope u're able to get me a nice electric guitar with an amp.
you should know which kind. *winks*
yup. and a new bike for bro?
i don't know what mum and dad want though.
how bout some world peace while you're at it?
ooh..i want a nice sweater too.
how bout..
well..get melon whatever she wants.not melons though.
loudie a new bat?
yak..hmm...sum really cool art gadget?
softie a loud hailer..
and sport..new skates?
i think that's bout it.
tanx mister santa sir.

love,zid

2004-12-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

on request of xinhui dearest...(yes..that's you melon..) i shall update.. (: *smiles to the crowd*

haha..alritey..well...last two nites..i barely slept...had to pretend to sleep around 4 cause dad was gonna wake up an hr later..yeahh...then last nite...couldn't sleep..haha..yup...yest went to taka with herm and bro..got my pants..then i remembered the JACK wallet..haha..so i got it...so happy...haha..it's so nice...hehx..yeahh...love it.. (: hehe..so now...rather soon...i going central with mum and bro..haha..dunno what for..just wal around i guess..and it was my idea...hehe...well..*shrugs*

oooh....aunty lynda just called...think she wanna invite us over for christmas dinner or something..haha..yeahh....hehe..hmm....*looks at new wallet*smiles*haha.....bro wants it...hehe..haha..hohoho...hahahaha..i'm so bloody high!!!!hahah...oh yeahh...i almost forgot...my dear neighbour..the one on the fourth floor....well...she got into tk!!!hahaha...cool..so that means i got meself a jnr two floors up..hmm...mum talking to aunt lynda...oh yeahh....we got catering job with uncle...damn...so i guess no dinner?yar...no dinner... :/ haha..oh well...hehe...least i got a job...oh..its lunch...not dinner..haha..well well...we going now..least mum preparing...haha..alritey..

cya!!! (:

2004-12-19T13:18:00.000+08:00

heyhey...i got a song stuck in my head...back from 1999 i think..haha..that's pretty long...

NEW FOUND GLORY
HIT OR MISSThe needle on my record player
has been wearing thin.
this record has been playing
since the day you been with him.

no more long rides home
no more of your station.
i didn't like it anyway...

remember the time we wrote ou names up on the wall?
remember the time we realized thriller was our favorite song?

have i waited too long?
have i found that someone?
have i waited too long to see you?

maybe it's for the best.
maybe it's not for anything
it wouldn't be so bad
to take this right from me.

no more long rides home
no more of your station
i didn't like it anyway...

remember the time we wrote our names up on the wall?
remember the time we realized thriller was our favoritee song?

have i waited too long?
have i found that someone?
have i waited too long to see you?

how many times i've tried.
simple to you...so simple to life.
blatant mistakes of your design.

have i waited too long?
have i found that someone?
have i waited too long to see you?

hehx..yupyup...
welll...went to ecp yest..with fam..w/o dad..
uncles aunts gran cousins were there..yeahh...
reached at 2.30p.m
left at ard 6 i think..cause danny was very freaked out..
it was dark and he was afraid of the waves and aeroplanes...yeahh..they were loud....
wad u expect?he was only 7 months come monday the 20th..
slept till 11 today..yup..
woke up no one was home..dad went coffeeshop up there and mum and bro went market down there...
bro got mild asthma again..haix..told him go swimming he dowan..
think it helps..swimming...seemed to be really fit and healthy when he was in swimming..
shouldn't have quit...such a waste..he's good...yup...
well..hmm..went out shopping with fam on...sat?fri?yeahh...
dad bought me two pants..got them altered...yea..first time..haha..so thi smeans they won't be too long..
hehe..yup..gettimg em twm aft two at wisma atria...haha..yea...
shall call hermen and ask him along later...wonder if he's working..haha..
works at toa payoh...yeahh..haha..well..mebbe i'll call him after this and ask him if he wanna go lib..
i gotta return all the comics and books me and bro borrowed..yeah...
well..guess i'll go now..cya all...have a great week..

*it wouldn't be so bad*

2004-12-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

hey...
i have no idea why i write when i feel that there's nothing worth writing about..yea..
well..got a job this 24th and 25th..
yup..havent had one in two years now?
working for my uncle..his catering business..
gonna make hermen come early and help me out..
haha..if not i gonna have to wash the veg alone..haha..
thinking that's bout the best thing that happened rather gonna happen this hols..
kinda feel that this season is kinda a downer for e..yeahh...
hmmm...
i miss training with the gang...
realise that i'm kinda very outta shape..
they got camp soon..in four days i think..yup..
wish i....
well....
no need say it i guess...
till next time....

*mistakes of my design*

2004-12-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

hey...
hmm...not much to say..
seems like i'm missing out on alot..
yea..
sad sad..
sha gg off tmw..
he's going to be in CD..haha..
yup..wonder how he gonna hand me my stuff..
yeah...
well...not much to say..
shall go..
cya all...
gdnite..

2004-11-21T10:21:00.000+08:00

hey..
it's sunday morning..
10.23..
going out later.
with uncle.
he picking us up..
be going quite a few houses.
me dun feel too good.
shall go find something to do.
cya..

2004-11-18T16:11:00.000+08:00

heyhey..
it's a thrusday afternoon..
4 o'clock
i'm bored..
parents killing me

me: i'm going central awhile rent some CDs
dad: you're not allowed to rent CDs young lady..

me: *entering my room*
mum: what's that i see on the coffee table?water?go wipe it off..

mum and dad: you got nothing to do izzit?go do your chores.
me: did them this morning.
mum and dad: oh...

yup..
bored now..
bro out with Almuf. Alfi's little bro.
womder where they are..
guess i should go read or smt..
then

mum or dad: go do something useful other than reading
me: did all my chores..
mum or dad: oh.

2004-11-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

*dancse*hell yeah!!!!!
hahah..com is finally fixed!!!
dad finally let me revamp it..so no more nice songs..*sobs*
no more nice files and stuff..*sobs*
nvm..shall start new..haha..yup..
wonder if anyone missed me..hehe..
hmm..i got a problem though..
aint got any office stuff..
me lost my product key so cant use..anyone got it can lend me?
yea..really need it..tanx!!
catcha later..

2004-10-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

heyhey..hmm..one song stuck in my head now and sumhow it kinda explains how i feel..weird but it just seems rite..yea..

hoobastank

running away

I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
...What is it I've got to say...
So why are you running away?
...To make you admit you're afraid...
Why are you running away?

2004-10-01T19:17:00.000+08:00

haha..heyhey..hmm..me proud of myself..haha..cause....i created our beutiful webbie in less than an hr..!!haha..ok..it aint that nice yet..but not bad for a first ..less than one hour summore..haha..yupyup..rach..if u happen to read this..go check it out..then tag em board k..tell me how it is..hehe.. (:

2004-10-01T17:22:00.000+08:00

hahahahhahaah...how dumb can one get...haha..for the past few days i've been trying to get online..couldnt cause my settings been deleted..so...me went to check all my ports and proxy stuff to see what was wrong...haha..nothing was!!then me sitting here stared at my com and realised that u forgot to put @singnet after my user id..haha..how dumb can i get??hehx..

anws..for the past few days..been eating fast food..steph, manda, i think we getting fat..haha..hehx..nvm..hmm..yea..

ooh..today..1st Octobeer 2004 a.k.a children's day...we had....

ENGLISH PAPERS!!!!

haha..me was excited..hehe..oooh..think i gettign hyper..yea..haha...shall..go bathe soon..hehe...later all!!!

2004-09-27T19:28:00.000+08:00

heyhey...hahahaha...first things first..*beeeeeeeeeg smile*

in the morning..just before seven...

xh:yadayada..*stretches arms and pen flies out the window*screams*Oh my gosh!!my pen!!
me:haha..out there..*points out window*
cali:*laughs*
xh:*screams summore*

xh still screaming..together with laughing cali runs out of classroom to get the pen..the class wonders what the racket is about..everone looks at me..

me:she stretched and her pen flew out..haha..

then heard them scream downstairs..

me:looks out*
xh:see my pen??
me:cannot see..
xh:why???
zid:*rmbs somethign bout reflection adjusts window*can see...over there..*points* got pe shirt eraser and 10cents..*tells chay*
chay:*looks out*adjusts window*laughs*
xh:something something broom..
me:chay..go get me the broom or something long..
chay:nah..don't think it'll reach..
me:haha..yar..*poke thing out of window..it doesnt reach*
xh:throw the broom down!!
me:*throws it down..lands rite in the middle of cali and xh*hehe..
xh: i was just kidding!!!KILLER LITTER!!!
me:haha..*laughs*

xh and cali try pathetically to get the broom

me call rach to help..

me:i'm here..
xh:azidah!!help me get my pen..!!
me:ok..ok..*looks at 1/6*hey..*to girl inside*close the window can?
girl:er..ok..*closes window*
me:hey..i climb arh..
xh:later u cannot get down how??
me:nvm lar..can one..er..cant reach..*tried to climb that thing*need a chair...*knocks on window*hey..can get a chair out here..?
girl:ok..*brings chair out*
me:tanx..*climbs on chair then that thing*rach..broom please..
rach:nah..*hands me broom*
me:*sweeps pen off*
xh:screams something..
me:eh..i cannot get back down..er...move the chair away..
rach:haiya...*moves chair away*
me:*jumps*
xh:*screams summore..*

me and rach run up..she gets her towel and i wash up..so dusty..haha..

and that was this morning..this my versh anyways..hehe..yea.. (:

then stuff and stuff happened..after school went ot bk with..rach manda steph and shannon..haha..suppose to study..they did..but i couldnt..then i did some calculations and realised that with yadayada...we have just enough money!!how bout that?!?hehe..realised i was broke too..haha..hmm..tehn steph and rach went out..

rach came back with shirt in hand..looked at in..concluded..eh..too beeg lar..along came steph..ok wad..with further explanations..yup..too beeg..manda says..zid u and rach go lar..off we went..rach tells me botu blur woman..haha..me goes to non blur woman..yadayada..we picked another shirt..short of 6 bucks..ran back..ran into some police officer..me was like..sorry!!sorry!!officer was way bigger than me..then i ducked to the side and ran back..told them of the situation..ran back..crapped bout flip flops..bought shirt with flops..came back..(: me got new nice flip flops..hehe..(: then crap summore..study summore..me ran away to mph w/o telling them..haha..i came back then they scolded me..hehe..cause i dint tell them where i was going..they care..*touched*hehx..then crap summore..and a whole lot more...went home..(: home..dunno what happened and now i'm here..(: gonna play it a lil while then do some trigo and mensuration qns for tmw spring..yea..hope i ace it..

in the mean time..my fingers are tired..cya all..have a wonderful night..and day to come..*smile*

2004-09-24T19:11:00.001+08:00

heyhey..me got back from school not a while back..yea..today was pretty ok..just not in the mood to do stuff..couldnt concentrate at all today..yea..then there was the bloody malay CA which cikgu told us about yesterday only..it was ok yet sucky..haix..nvm..yea..

then after school went lunch at kfc with steph, rach and kimberly..yea..bought strings before that..yup..saw the yamaha elctric guitar..its really nice..yea..love the design..haha..haix..gotta wait..yup..then i came back school first..there hung around pp..got back went 1/6 saw the drama ppl dance and stuff..nice..yup..then i just sit there rot and analyse..hehe..nvm..then went home near 5.30..had nothing better to do..haha..yea..

met wen shan at the busstop..haha..she couldnt stop waving..yea..then we took the same bus and talked throughout the whole ride back..yup..we talked bout trigo and debate..haha..funny..yup..then she say she going tj..so we only gonna meet on the train next time..haha..yea..herd that lee and kai jie got in also...haha..i rmb lee used to crap alot in pri sch..haha..funny dude..yup..

hmm..me hungry now..aint got food at home..bro wanna go pri sch(my ex-pri sch) lantern fest thing..yup..but its raining..haha..yea..so now dunno he going anot..haha..hmm..he telling me that his friend go lioa..so now he telling my dada that..haha..think he really wanna go..the one in P-6 was fun..that was the first one..haha..i was in charge of the dunno waf station..haha..i stood up all the time cause some kid stole my chair..haha..yar..then cikgu sabariah bought us drinks..haha..i rmb i tied my hair cause it was rael warm and i wore my pe shirt underneath..haha..that one was nice..my parents went too..hehx..everyone was there..then last year i had no fun..it was bloody boring..no fun stuff like th eprevious year..haha..yea..ooh..so i guessing bro going..yea...

hmm..tmw morn gotta wake up real early...got the umpiring thing at ccab at...8?yea..then end ard 12?yup..me hope to go out after that..mum told me i spoiled her plans cause she wanted me to mop..haha..hmmm....hope i get to go out tmw..yea..if not come home then the usual..yea..think i gonna do math hmwk after i bath which is soon..then if i still got the mood do abit of math then...fix it..bought strings today..hehe..yay!!yea..me gonna look for this song snd try something diff..yup..alritey..i'm all wet now..haha..gonna bathe..i stink..hehx..that was long..

*Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have*

cya all...

2004-09-24T19:11:00.000+08:00

2004-09-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

heyhey..me gonna do sum stuff then..once i get bored...go do math i guess..haha..yea..hmm..today was ok..yest too..been wanting to study for the past two days..but go distracted..haha..funny funny...hehe..nvm..me too lazy to type more..yea..gonna go now..cya all..

2004-09-21T18:05:00.000+08:00

hey...its tues...cough getting much better..haha..yup..realised i talked alot today..haha..last three periods all free periods..suppose to study..bu somehow ended up talking to surayya, liyana, shameen and later syafiqah.haha..was funny..yea..then after school suppose to have luch with xh..sorry!!!i dint turn up..then got stuck with maryam..haha..we had a rather interesting conversation..yea..now i'm wondering who's the real me..hehe..or how psychologically stable or well i am..haha..i'm a person with deep thoughts that never come out..true..hehx..dark secrets..hehe..yeahh riite..haha..*wonders* hehx..alritey..guess me gonna go through science again if shima doesnt call me..haha..yea..cud've written alot of notes during the three periods..but heck..haha..shall do so diligently tmw..yea..hehx..alritey..me shall go bathe then eat dinner..then..science i guess..and burn a cd or so..yea..later all...

*i wanna own the capitol building..the old one..haix...*

2004-09-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

heyhey...me cant talk..cough getting real bad..violent coughs..haix..hurts man..bites..cant even yell to get that clear voice..it comes out as a squeak..haix..dun like it..hurts bad..hate it when it itches..then the cough comes bad..not good..haix..

nvm that..hmm..been into macy gray lately..haha..dun ask me why..one fine day remembered the song sweet baby and i got hooked..haha..its a nice song..yea..MACY GRAY LYRICS

"Sweet Baby"

Many times I've been told that I should go
but they dont know
what we got baby
then they not see the love in you
but love i do
and i'm staying right here

ummm sweet sweet baby life is crazy
but there's one thing
i am sure of
that I'm your lady
always baby
and I love you now and ever

Suga wishes dont change what is real
or how it feels in the bad times
forever he is, he's mine all the time
and we get by with our true love

ummm sweet sweet baby life is crazy
but there's one thing
i am sure of
that I'm your lady
always baby
and I love you now and ever

ummm sweet baby life is crazy
but there's one thing
i am sure of
that I'm your lady
always baby
and I love you now and ever

I bet would I ever find, my sweet
just a true love, my sweet
that we come this far together
I bet so I'm here to stay
cos without you baby
I cant go any further

ummm sweet baby life is crazy
but there's one thing
i am sure of
that I'm your lady
always baby baby
mah mah ever mah mah ever mah mah sweet sweet baby
life is so sweet with you
sweet with you
sweet
sweet with...
[macy fades away]

alritey..gonna go check out fender strats now..haha..cya!!

2004-09-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

heya..me having flu i think..body aching..shd be lar..yea..

D--R--A--I--N--E--D

yea..me not sure if gg sch tmw..hope not..hehx..then can rest...nite can study for hist..be better than tiring myself out and having difficulty in studying tmw..hehx..yep..me cant take much solids..throat hurts..currently living on campbell soup..its ok but..not enuf..still hungry..and i get sick of it quiet easily..hmm..think i'll go home early tmw..sleep..eat perhaps..then..study..yea..

wrist hurting..getting tired..will go now..

goodnite all...

2004-09-11T13:59:00.000+08:00

hey...hmm..havent been updating in a while..hols been pretty ok i guess..yea..too short..hehe..did sum studying and stuff..training..yea..school on mon..hope its smooth..yea..hmm..surprisingly things at home pretty good too..me and dad been talking more..heh..yea...he ordered my book through amazon..cool..heh..will be getting it late october..yay!! :) been playing it a wee bit too..and i really mean a wee bit..hehx..yup..hmm..mum say mite be going pasir ris later..then evening go jalan kayu..hope i can stay home and meet em at jalan kayu or something..yea..hmm..dun have much to say..yea..guess that's it..

cya all!!!

2004-09-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

heyhey..hehx..me been lazy to update..yea..hmm..past week..rather this week..mrs T. dint coem for two three days?yea..hehx..then...mrs yeo aint back yet i think..had the hist CA today..had it during english..yea..was pretty easy..did it in like 10 mins then i slept..haha..yea..enrichment was fun too..haha..our inspirational group won..crap..then mt we played scrabble..yest had trg..that was fun..played shooter..haha..crappy..then..hmm..wed no sch..did hist in the morn at Cali's..her grandmother is cool...haha..then we did the slides and stuff..later me and viv sng went pp do our lit project..everyone was late at the same time..haha..did that faster than expected..yea..hehx..then home..evening went tp to have dinner..ate chicken rice..tues was half day..it was sucky..no other comment..mon..no trg..yea..cause sun had pesta sukan..hmm..that pretty much sums up the week..hehx..ok..yea..

that's all..cya..

*knock*knock*........boo!!

knockknock*........boo!!